it's not easy, to be..ME

assalamualaikum n salam sejahtera to all readers, visitors, n followers,
hola!! camne ari ni? hidup anda sehat?huhuhu...
lets get started!

byk actually yg yus nk kongsi, kalo boleh, semua yus nk kongsi! but, this is public! ape yg private kne la simpan gk kn, xkn nk cri publisiti murahan plak? ok! i'm the HOT ARTIS~*xde kne mgena antara yg hidup atau yg mati*hahaha.. hari2 yus cm ni la! bored! asyik borink je~adoyai! pe nk wt ni? ni yg xsuke bile ade cuti yg pnjg2 ni*cuti sem* i love to get busy, thats only the way that i can release my tense, hmmm..FYI, yus sgt suke wat keje! what ever kind of work, i means, when i was at college! many things can i do! hahaha. contoh? basuh baju sendiri*kat uma campak je dlm mesin*..iron bju, kemas bilik, byk la..

yup! thats why yus prefer dok hostel.tapi....sekarang sume da berubah! yus xnk dok kolej, nk dok uma lame2.hmm nth la! *hye org tdekat taw ape masalah yus* even dorg taw pon, dorg still xdpt wat pape!
xpe..yus paham..yus xminx belas kasihan! bia la org sekeliling nk ckp ape skali pon, kehidupan ni mesti diteruskan! bia pon payah macam mane. i just need time, so please support me b'coz IT'S NOT EASY TO BE ME

kuatkanlah semangatmu !!

assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera!

hola to all readersts, visitors n followers,

entri kali ni cik yus nk cite pasal sorg kawan!!

name die NURUL SHAZWANI..*jp2 btol x aku eja ni?* sorry dear!!!

a few day ago, yus receive msg kt FB, <<<yus, aku nk bahu ko,,nk nanges>>

wanne!!what happen to u? aku try byk kali kol ko, tpi xdpt, haishhh...u make me worry alot dear, meh nanges same2 ngn aku meh...wanne~ if there's anything that you want to story, just please let me know.

memori!

assalamualaikum,
 ptg ni kt uma cik yus ujan~tpi, xde la lebat cgt, nth tbe2..memori dulu2 sume bputar!
aduh!!susah la cmni, byk keje lain yg cik yus leh buat, tpi, npe memori 2 dtg balik? perlu ke?
sape lah aku nk halang memori ni..semangat! hidup perlu diteruskan~ hingga ke titisan terakhir!
apepon yg terjadi, i need to be strong girl~ n i knew i can! biase la 2, kdg2 susah utk kite lupakan ape yg dh blaku, it;s not easy..i wish i could fly!

but, dont ever blame urself of what are fate to u, cik yus terima sgalenye ngn hati terbuka, but it doesn't mean that i will erase that memori easily, it just take time! look at u now yus! you look better than before. no need to look-back, if it will hurt you again. i know, i just WONDERING to know what exactly in ur mind pa!
it's OK, i'm FINE with it.

and now, im happy, happy to live the life, enjoy every moment with my family, NO ONE will understand whats going now, i dont mind what ever people around said back-of-me. i know myself better! seeing my friends happy, i happy to hear too.

starting julai 2011, i will try to persuade myself for not to being stupid like buffalo, at kolej, i will do what ever kind of activitis that will make me feel free to breath in this world..pray alot yus! yes i am..i will! i'm the new person! CRY? no more to cry on, if i still cry on  it, i just like left myself in fantasy. yus!!! wake up! wake up! there many things that you need to face, this matter just a small amount of problems that you need to face the truth! even it hard to be the truth, i  have too.*cross your fingers, n wish miracles could happen right now~*

wow!! now i'm back to college this July. many preparation i need to do, Alhamdulillah, everythings will be OK,but then..i still afraid, if 'em could not accept me! neither! oh GOD!help me!just be CHILL+RELAX= CHILAX,hahaha..

fight until the end, you what?? i'm good actor!!

terkilan!

cik yus sgt2 terkilan~

ok fine! mbfffff kate nk dtg uma *a few days ago*..ok fine~ dtg la klo nk,

but, nothing!! klo rase xdpt dtg, then say may be dtg.. not aku dtg uma ko ptg ni!!

aku dan diriku

assalamualaikum readerst n visitors,
i would really appreciate it if you drop here n leave your comment..:)
salam ukhuwah ye...

ok la, yus bukannye ape la kan, statement aku dan diri ku ni,,agak cm sdey la jgk?yeke?hahaha.. yus just wanna share something to you all,

starting wif a girl*thats me*..a girl that want to love and to be loved by some one, yes, that we call nature la kn, every one have the same feeling like me,.everything goes smooth,until one day, i decided to separate, i mean..clash la,hmmm.. yup, it really hard to forgot all those things, being like others people, act to be normal n look like nothing happen, huh! what a shame!! and i really know that i'm good actor!!any reward?huhu..enough!

others may seem look me like OK, but they never though that i was not enough strong to face all matters in this world!..NO!!i can't run from this probs, all i need is, to relax my mind, n dont ever mess my mind wif fucking problems of LOVE!!..ok guys over there~i'm not too desperate to fall in love second time! there's another things that i want to achieve first!.that's it!! bingo! 

fuhhhhh~

assalamualaikum..
rase nye da lame x update blog yus yg comey ngn love,love ni..huhu
forst of all..sorry cgt ye my lovely blog..i'm quite busy..almaklum la dtg kolej ari2 yus jmpe ngn kawan2 sume~ tbe2 skg rindu la plak.huhuhu..but it's ok..next sem we will fight for our last responsibility....
hang on my dear friends of MPP KPMAM..i will do the best as i can..insyaAllah...berusaha sehabis baik untuk kolej tercinta.!!!

begitu bersemangat sekali ye!! itu yg kita mahu~
actually kan time yus dtg kolej 2..ari jumaat(20mei) pastu ptg ade meeting MPP bsame penasihat..yus attend ok!
then at the night we all yus lepak-ing kat cafe~pastu balik bilik nk tgk movie la konon*bak kate presiden i:tgk movie smpi muntah* tpi kan die xtgk pon!haishh...
the next day:nothing much to do, just edit-ing a few of paperwork*yus tlg tgk je ok!*huhu..then post via email..enough!ptg 2 yus byk wat research for the next sem pye program..feel like very exciting to wait for the next intake~prepare kn diri tok whatever program next sem ok

Sunday plak: yus n kawan2 yg lain*doyah,farny,kak mai,eba,diyana,kak qila n a few others, sorry if i not mention*.. g umah madam norma!wah~my favourite account lecturer married! i pray for their happiness..
tmpt nye blangsung kat kluang,johore! then we all go to ayer itam..to buy pots??hoho..no la, nothing pon nk beli..present for madam diba!!
night: makan2 di alai~ wonderful..n u know what,,yus jadi MC bidan terjun that night, ok for the first time~everything goes smoothly..
tnpe la di sangke2..mlm 2..zul kate blik lmbat ckit, ade suprise la konon..kate nye nk g masjid al-azim!!sape nk kawen zul oi?huhu..kiteorg g MAHKOTA PARADE then g karoke!!wah~~best2..

the next day, zul n farny hanta yus kat MC. yus pon balik uma!!!home sweet home!!

sabar itu indah

salam alaik..
entri kali ni yus nk kongsi kan bsame ape itu sabar~ dan kenapa kita perlu bersabar..cube pikir jap..cepat pk!!!huhu....yus xmo pakse2 ok~ xmo xmo, xbaik..huhu..meh2 yus nk cte ckit..
ni cik yus dpt title ni dri majalah solusi isu no.31.sabar itu indah..yup...sabar itu susah.sabar itu ganjaran surga..marilah kita byk2 bsabar. sesungguhnya sabar itu penebus dosa.

separuh manusia yg lain menyatakan..'mane boleh sabar ni,da melampau batas ni'si A bkate...ade yg lain pula'sabar aku ade had la  wei'ni si B pula yg kate..'sampai bile aku nk bersabar ha' si C yg kate..si D pula' asyik2 aku je yg kne sabar.'.. ok anda kategeri yg mana? si A? B? C? D? jika anda sume ade tergolong antara salah satu drpdnye..anda bukanlah org yg mampu bersabar untuk jangka masa yg lama..

jangan pernah merasa penat,lelah dan putus asa untuk terus bersabar.bile kite bersabar..byk manfaatnye. dripada marah yg xtentu pasal?bile seseorang itu berasa marah yg amat sgt.maka bawa lah bersabar..marah itu mudah..mudah didampingi oleh syaitan..mudah mendapat penyakit dan macam2 lagi..bila kita marah..sesungguhnya kita bagaikan dikuasai oleh emosi sepennuhnya,sebaiknya kita meredakan kemarahan kita itu dahulu dan berfikir secara positif.

xsalah untuk marah..tapi biarlah berpada2..kalo kite hendak marah sekalipun..biarlah marah dgn care yg berhemah n bukan dikuasai oleh syaitan..betul..kadang2 kita x mampu untuk mengawal kemarahan itu..same jugak dgn cik yus, tpi we need to controll it..kadang2 kerja byk btimbun2 biasa la 2 student kan, pas2 ade plak yg xkena..ade masalah 2 la,masalah ni la..kdg2 smpi terkena tempiasnya kat org yg xsepatutnye! why not u take a deep breath,n relax for a moment.

muhasabah diri

assalamualaikum semua.

asif jiddan*maaf sgt2* sbb rasenye lame x update blog ni..adoyaiiii..mcmmne la nk jadi seorg yg sgt2 rajin utk meng-update blog...xpe2..yus berusaha ok...entri kali ni,yus nk cte ttg sorg kawan yus ni....name die..AFIFAH BINTI MOHD ALI BIN TUAH..AFIFAH.ALI.TUAH*smpi name atok die pon yus igt..ish3..terharu x klo dpt kawan mcm yus?*cpt nanges*..baru2 ni la,jap2 xde la baru sgt act, kiteorg jmpe kat pesta buku yg terakhir,kt PWTC.ok yus pergi pesta buku 2 utk kali pertama ok..even every year ade event 2..bru tahun ni ade kesempatan nk g. memang da rancang nk jmpe,so yus dri uma trus naek ktm kt putra..tggu kat putra la..mak aaaiiiii memg naik ktm 2 sgt2 la sempit..mcm sardin di pack dlm tin,sgt2 padat ok smpi xboleh nk bnafas,ok yus hampir2 sje nk naik ktm seterusnye je..tpi opkoz la lmbt lgi en...so yus pon myempitkan diri yus..naseb bek coach ladies.alhamdulillah ade la space utk yus masok tpi sipi2 je ok.. 

da smpi kt putra..wah!!!rmi nye manusia...opkoz la en, sbb hari terakhir pestabuku 2. then yus pun jmpe ngn kawan yus 2..die g rombongan adek beradek die..rmi gk la,,,jp2hambik kau..7org adek beradek die...tpi,excetly sume 12org adek2 die...seb bek x semua yg g...huhu...

kiteorg pon g la PWTC 2,jalan2 pnye jalan yg sgt2 sesak dgn manusia,yus ade la jgk membeli buku ok,pas2 kiteorg lepak kat area pentas*dok tepi pentas la*pnt sgt kaki dok jalan je kijonye...pas2 kiteorg chatting la,cit-cat isu semasa,pasal study,n yus ade jgk tye soalan kt die.mcm jadikan die ni tmpt rujukan la..yus memg suke sgt merujuk kt seseorg yg arif pasal agame2 ni,,,almaklumla,,da lame sgt x mentarbiahkan diri...so BUKAN SEKALI SKALA NK MUHASABAH DIRI ok..tpi..SELALU MUHASABAH DIR,terutama SEBELUM KITA TIDOooooo...mesti sgt muhasabah diri ok,,pk blik adekah kite da buat yg terbaik tok hari 2?ade x yg myakitkan hati kite...kite dah maafkan ke belumm...haruslah maafkan org*bukan harus,tpi wajib ok syg* 

tpi en time chitchat ngn kawan yus 2, yus tertarik dgn 1bende..ni pasal "mgumpat"*oppsss,kiteorg x ngmoat sape2 ok..ape nth yus tye,tbe2 afifah 2 bg statement..''kite slalu ckp bia la die nk ngumpat diri kite,die yg dpt dosa en,tpi sebenarnye,kite pon bdosa sbb kite dah bagi die mgumpat diri kite..'' yus sgt2 terpegun dgn ayat die sbb yus cm baru tsedar yg sbnrnye die ckp 2 byk btolnye..ok la memg la org yg suke sgt mgumpat ni,,kite pk die je yg bdosa kan??tpi dlm xsedar kite, kite pon da aibkan diri kite n buat org sekeliling mgate ttg diri kite.itu bmaksud kite kne ubah cre hidup kite.xkan la kite nk org 2asyik mgumpat diri kite,,tpi en,,kdg2 yus mcm nk sgt dgr org ngumpat diri yus,nk taw sgt ape yg dorg ckp pasal diri yus,boleh baiki diri balik kn..tpi, kite ni manusia biase sahaja,PASTI ade kekurangan tersendiri...kadg2 yus pk..knpe manusia ni perlu mgumpat sesame sndiri,even kawan baik sdri*opppsss kdg2 yus pun xterlepas nk ngumpat* sorry sgt kt kawan2 yus,yg mgkin yus ade mgate ke,secare sedar o xsedar...

actually mmg susah nk tutup mulut kite sndiri,act xsusah pon...cume kne tahan nafsu 2 dri mgate seseorg dan bcakap pasl keburukan seseorg yg lain,,,nape x kite ckp yg baik2 aje?bsangke baik drpd bsangke buruk,,,lebih mendatangkan faedah,btol x?tpi kdg2 kite lupa,alpa,lalai..sbb kite ni hanye manusai!!! pape pon npe kite x cube utk mgubah diri kite..xkan la kite nk dgr org asyik ngumpat pasal diri kite je?opkoz la kite nk org bcakap yg baik2 je ttg kite..tpi,jgn la smpi myebabkan kite riak kelak..manusia ni susah nk jgke ape yg die pk...even yus sdri kadang2 pk A dlm pale otak,tpi yg kua nye B..x ke lain 2?

sbb 2 kite kne slalu muhasabah diri,,sgt2 perlu..boleh jatuh hukum wajib x?*ish3*wajib sgt2 mgnilai diri kite..yus pon bukan byk sgt pgetahuan ttg agame,tpi byk lgi ilmu Allah yg yus nk taw..ilmu Allah sgtla luas,.jgn kite jadi seorg yg sgt rugi dek kesibukan keje o study tpi kite lupe dgn Allah..jgn sekali2 ye kawan2..bukan kite xboleh o xmampu!!!actually org islam ni sgt2 btuah n sgt tggi nilainye disisi Allah,,

ok,yus nk share 1cte. ni kisah pasal sorg mualaf,die baru je masuk agama islam...yus bace kt ne nth lupe da..xsilap,majalah nur kot...ok la,die ckp die baru sgt2 masuk islam die sgt2 tertarik dgn agama Allah ni,hambaAllah ni cube mperbaiki diri,die ckp die sndiri cube utk solat 5waktu dgn penuh...SUBUH,,,waktu manusia seisi alam sdg tido,,umat islam pula kne bangun nk solat,bukan sng taw nk bgon time sume org sdg tdo...*hati yus kate:btol 2*..time ZOHOR..kalo yg tgh keje 2,,terpakse sinkatkan mase lunch dorg nk kne bgegas g surau nk sembahyang..sekali lgi,,,tpakse korbankan mase makan...sdg org lain senang lenang makan ,kite pula tergese2 makan..ASAR pula, saat kite *yg keje o study* nk balik dri keje, sume bgese2 tuju kat parking kete,tpi kite pula??bgegas ke musolla,sbb tkut xsempat nk solat kt uma.almaklum la..slalu jam time nk balik keje en...yg study pon sme pas blik kolej o U,,sume bgegas balik bilik n tdo...tpi,umat islam dgn penat belajar bkejar2 nk tunaikan solat asar..MAGHRIB...waktu yg pling singkat...saat org lain sdg brehat smbil menonton tb, umat islam..solat cpt2 sbb tkut lambat nti tlepas solat la plak en.. ISYAK..sgt org lain tgah bersiap2 nk tdo...umat islam skali lgi bpusu2nk tunaikan solat sbb tkut tertido pastu xsolat,,PLUS saat manusia se isi alam sdg nyeyak di buai mimpi indah...ade umat islam yg BANGUN MALAM..untuk menunaikan SOLAT2 SUNAT....indah sungguh....

adakah kite tergolong sprti ape yg mualaf 2 pk??yus pon xpnh terpikir mcm 2...subhanaALLAH...begitu skali mualaf 2 pk ttg islam...kdg2 kite yg islam ni pon.....*smbg sdri ok*..xpyh tnjuk org 2 o org ni...tgk diri kite..n try cri ape kekurgan diri, n byk2 la bDOA sbb DOA 2 senjata UMAT ISLAM..yup...dulu yus macam xpaham la..npe DOA 2 senjata org islam??byk rahsia disebalik DOA ni...bDOA lah kite pade pncipta...byk2 klo nk nanges,,nanges la puas2..sbb klo time solat pastu kite nanges..mesti kite akan rase puas..puas sgt2..nanges dpn pencipta,merayu dpn pencipta,menghina diri dpn pencipta...insyaAllah...semua masalah kite akan dpermudahkan...cubelah!!!!sbb yus pnh rse dtg 1smgt lepas luahkan sume masalah kt pencipta...jadikan ALLLAH 2 tempat MENGADU yg PERTAMA...mengharap pada ALLAH...bukan pada manusia yg xmjanjikan ape2...tpi Allah pasti menjanjikan sesuatu!!!!

rasenye mcm da byk je yus bebel*bebel ke?* alhamdulillah pade sape2 yg bce entri ni..yus doakan smoga kite dpt mgubah diri kite kearah yg lebih baik...insyaAllah...nti ade mase lagi yus cte lgi ok...smoga anta. anti.antum.antunna sume dpt sikitbanyak intipati yg yus cuba smpikan...:)wasalam..